Another Christmas Eve….

It’s 10:41pm on Christmas Eve.  If you had asked me last year, what I would be doing tonight, I never in a million years would have thought I would be where I am.  I’m back in Tennessee, I’m living with one of my best friends and I have never felt so blessed.  We are watching movies and drinking cider as we make faces at eachother across the room.  I am dating someone new, his name is Michael and at this point I don’t know where it’s going if anywhere.  Work is so stressful for the both of us, I often worry that this new relationship wont make it through these first few months, because we aren’t able to connect and because we can’t talk or get to know eachother as much as I wish we could.  And although I am comfortable and am willing to power through, I can not speak for him.  Of course you can never read another persons mind and you can never truely know what they are thinking.  All I know is that I am taking this slow, and trying not to drive myself into a world of pain like I have done with so many other relationships.  My job is good, it has had it’s bad moments, but for the most part I realy enjoy what I am doing and I don’t mind getting up and going to work everyday.  I am looking forward to New Years Eve, I have plans for once to go out and get crazy it should be interesting and I am sure that somewhere at some point there will be pictures.  As for tonight, I’m just going to continue to chill with Amanda, and be thankful that I am some place warm with people I care about.  I hope everyone has a blessed holiday.

~ by strangerswithkandi on December 25, 2008.